a yr older. a yr wiser?

Officially ONE year older.
hopefully a year wiser.
hahahaha

im not angry.

im not throwing a tantrum.
if u realise, i din even argue.
whats done is already done.

im not angry.

LAST again.

again its proven,
im always the LAST to know anything.
>.<

--------------------------

ps: ni hao ma?

i have never.

there are some things i think i shd clarify!!!!

1. im NOT a smoker! nv smoke before. nv try before also.

2. im not a stalker. i jus happen to browse fb most of the time. and i cant help it if my news feed are clogged by check in.

3. im human too. i also got times when i DUN wan to give in. times when i wan MY way.

4. i DO keep things to myself.

5. DONT tell me anything, any secrets IF you dont trust me. its v tiring to keep ensuring you that i WUN say anything out. OMG. wld it be better if i told you whatever you told me has just flew out right from the other ear.

6. when i say i DUN wan to talk about it means i DUN wan to talk about it. get it??!!


seriously.

secret agent belle :p

i just realise i got two secret blogs. (incl this one)
:x

lets hope im diligent enuf in maintaining it
hahha

feels different

for once, im not looking forward to this period of the year.
this is really weird.
normally by now i would have posted a wishlist and bug ppl to claim an option to fufil to me...
Hmmm.
~.~'''

we can be 好朋友 ?

曾经因为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉 你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞

knowing u is fate.
liking u is fate
but not being able to progress further is also fate.
i guess its not enough.

never regretted letting my heart open to you.
even if it wasnt meant to be or might have not lasted, im glad u took a slot in my heart.
despite not knowing when i changed, im glad it was for you.
i never tot of it to be possible but i guess fate works in a strange way.

yr dimple when u smile.
yr fingers when our hands held.
yr candid-ness in our conversations
yr voice when u sing
yr teasing on the phone
yr self all the time

i think the comfortable level i had with u was something i nv felt before. to be able to b myself. to feel tat someone can accept me with/wout make up, watever clothes i wear, specs/contacts.

i duno when is it along the way that i felt i jus wanted to be with u forever. haha
sounds exaggerating?
im not.

BUT
call it a woman's sixth sense.
i somehow knew u r kinda still hung up over her.
even though you say u dun wan to clear any misunderstanding with her to let her hate u. but i knew u care ALOT about wat she thinks.
its the frequent conflicts tat got u tired n wanted to end the r/s. but i guess you two are kinda suitable for each other. just nd to iron out the differences.
i cant help you at that. but i give you my sincere blessings :)

---------------
thank you for everything.
for sharing your past and issues with me.
for spending time with me
for tryin to see if we can work out
for being honest with me about how u really felt.
for being you.

you will always have this special soft spot in my heart ;)
JIANG ZHEN DE.
--------------------

i will be fine.

this is how i feel now

against all odds

i was tempted to just stick to LJ for blogging pleasures.
but den i realise i wanted something new.
something that i can just say what i want. w/out ppl finding out who i am.

why the blog name rightsagainsthewrongs?

cause in the world we live in, how many of us can differentiate between the rights and the wrongs.? the heart against the mind? the good against the bad?

i haven been happy recently.
like so suffocated up cause i duno what is right, what is wrong.
is liking a person right or wrong?
is havin expectations right or wrong?
i dont anymore.

i dont need to be needy on anyone. im not liked that.
but at times i jus need a shoulder to lean on. to take off my independent costume and jus be normal. be common.
but no.
ppl expect from me to be who i m always. to let them lean on.
its okay to lend a shoulder. but wheres one when i need one?
jus cause im not the IP you wan me to be means ive changed?
have you, for a moment, stop and think that this may be who i really am?
i also have my weak moments
i also have moments where i want to be mean, to be critical, to be wild, to do the wrong right things at the right time.
YES! this is wat i wan now.
rebellious? i shd think so.

BUT NO!
a little bit of change everyone start making a hooha over it.

i just wanna tell them!
i love as wat i wan, how i wan, who i wan, when i wan.

i may care alot for you
but if u push me away den im sorry.
im just gonna turn and walk away.
cause im tired of waiting for miracles to happen.
tired of hopin ppl notice me for a change.

its okay.
go do your own stuff.
i'll do mine.
im perfectly fine being alone. as ive always been.
yi ge ren.